i bid 09 farewell...

Looking back at all that has happened this year, I'm really thankful to God for seeing me through 09'...and I know that I've changed for the better. Did a bit of reflection and here's what year 09' taught me:

• Get real

When i was a kid, i had the wildest fantasies! Most were unrealistic...and watching those Disney fairytales had led me to believe that "life was a bed of roses". My happy childhood certainly didn't prove me wrong, or even my teenage life for the matter. Ok lah...i mean, i knew life ain't a bed of roses but yet, I really believed in happy endings. But for this year, I guess i grew out of that. A dear friend of mine pass away unexpectedly...and that woke me up to the reality of life. It also made me realise how important it actually is to show love and kindness to one another everyday of our lives.

• Insecurity

I consider myself a highly insecure person. Someone who feeds on the comments of others and whose personality is shaped by people and circumstances. But I'm glad that I'm changing. It's one of my targets for 2010; to learn to secure myself in God.

• Humility

I never really understood the meaning of humility and thought that it was simply being humble. But it's more than that...it's literally disregarding yourself. I used to take pride in myself a lot and trusted in my abilities. But after i started work and found out that i had problems even getting simple things done, I knew i had deceived myself big time. When things got bad, I came to the breaking point where I understood that I was nothing without God. Without Him, my life amounts to nothing. He is my Creator, and I have nothing to boast about myself. I didn't create myself, God did. And if there is anything i should be boasting about, it should be in God.

• Moulding

One of my favorite characters in the Bible in Joseph. He endured much without complain and eventually, rose to power. The situations and circumstances that he went through, moulded him and prepared him for the day where he would rise to be a ruler in Egypt. In the past, I've always thought that things could be done instantly so long as I'm determined enough, and that if i wanted to change, I could. But i've learnt that moulding is a process, a long and tedious one; of which endurance is required. It's similar to running a marathon. Hence, I wanna let God mould me and shape me the way He desires, for I'm the clay and He is the Potter.

Good bye 2009!

Christmas is just 15 mins away...so, i'm gonna do a bit of reflection here. when i was a kid, Christmas equated to presents. i had loads of them back in those days. I knew the meaning behind Christmas, celebrating the birth of Jesus. That was what i was taught in sunday school. but i never really understood what was so fantastic about Christmas. I'd think...Jesus was not even born on the exact Christmas day and so, i never felt like Christmas was a very big deal. I'd look forward to it no doubt...to the end-year parties, writing Christmas cards and the Spirit of giving that followed the festive season.

But yesterday, Ps Daniel gave a very good illustration about the Christmas story...and for once, i heard it with new insight. Quoting from Matthew 1vs 23 in the Bible, it says: Behold, the virgin shall be with child, and bear a Son, and they shall call His name Immanuel," which is translated, "God with us."

Jesus was also called Immanuel which means God with us. man and God were separated because of sin. And Jesus came as human to bear our sins and crucify them on the cross, though He himself is sinless. And now, we can have that relationship with God our Maker. Jesus is God...and He has walked among us as a human being in order to rebuild this relationship between God and man.

Hence Jesus was also known as Immanuel, God with us. And Christmas is to celebrate the fact that we no longer have to be separated from God but from this day hence forth, we can choose to have a relationship with our Maker and He'll always be with us till the very end. That's Christmas!

GOD BLESS YOU!!!

Wedding...

Yesterday as Lynette walked down the aisle, I was very touched and overjoyed for her. It was such a beautiful sight to behold. Knowing that she has gone through so much in life and that she's finally found her happiness, gives me joy. But the true beauty of it all was the fact that the both of them love God very much...And with God as the head of this marriage, blessed is the couple!

I long to roam the streets once more. I want an adventure. I crave for it. I miss the times I was there. :(