my dear dear Jordanna...

There's only one thing that can make me truly happy right now... it's when cancer has left you...and there's no trace of it left behind...Jordanna, stay strong, the Lord will deliver you. hang in there!

I used to think that ranting on a blog was kinda useless but I seriously feel like doing that now. I'm so very tired!!! Tried to sleep at 4.30am on a cold and hard floor in the tutorial room. Tossed and turned...I ended up sleeping on a table instead. This is probably what you'll get at overnight camps held in TP. haha...nonetheless, it felt like home. cause of the ppl that were there.

I'll miss all of you guys...and no matter where we may be in the future, i hope we'll always be in contact and stay as friends forever.

The Ultimate Goal

My Ultimate Goal in life is to be like Christ and fulfill the destiny to which He has called me.

loneliness...

i guess i'm fortunate to say that there were only a handful of times that I've felt rather lonely.

moving into ntu has given me a lot of time for myself, which i lacked while working in tp. i was pretty much occupied with work, friends, family and i felt like i had a 'life' then; so to speak. But things has changed since i moved to the west.

i'm pretty much alone most of the time & the fact that i have only 13 hours of classes per week for this sem; seriously doesn't help. it kinda made me realize that i've this need to be occupied with something. this need probably developed while i was working. as a result, i'm battling with loneliness.

its times like this when i begin to understand that what i have now is most valuable... previously, by filling up my organizer, i perceived i was productive; felt a sense of accomplishment too. but what exactly have i accomplished or achieved? haha...i've got to seriously ask myself this question. with time now on my side, what should be done with it? what takes priority?

I thank God for being there for me always...I can never feel too lonely with Him by my side...and i know He'll guide me and see me through, for He is faithful!

I found this quote by a UN Official called Dag Hammarskjold, Swedish guy. It says:

“Pray that your loneliness may spur you into finding something to live for, great enough to die for.”

A great quote isn't it? I love it. I've already found that something. It's none other than God and our Lord Jesus Christ!